Have i mentioned that i la-La-LA-LOVE my new job?! anyplace serving unlimited free coffee has my vote =)

My best and most important investment in 2011 is me! -S.Tensai!

What i've learned from clubing is that if you're the third wheel, you're easy prey & you must hold STRONG will & little patience. Hence my Excellence...

life has changed

so, i moved

i did it, i finally left everything i hated about Oregon and opted for everything i loved about SoCal. im in Sunny Los Angeles

="(

... i also left a few things behind i didn't want to leave. well a person, not a thing. i spent my whole time after graduation in Portland so i could continue the relationship with someone that i cared for so much, and every day i realized that i was sadder than the last and doing nothing different about it.

that is, until half way through April 2010 when we were doing the same thing we did every evening with our friends after another crappy day. not even a quarter the way through it all, after having gotten ready for a good night while avoiding an argument, i got tired. i didn't need a nap but my body was exhausted from the repetition and my mind was weary from stagnation. i nearly snapped at a coworker who recognized me at the bar and that's when i knew drinking wouldn't solve my problems.

two miles later i had sore calves and a good sweat on my forehead as i finished walking home at midnight. by morning i woke up with a sad smile and said the words that ruined my relationship, "i think im going to move to LA at the end of May."

then i turned around, took a shower, and watched my world fall apart with nothing but hope that id find a way to rebuild.

im in East LA now, back almost where i was a few years ago. my future is a bit more vague but my present is much more exciting. my heart has been painfully torn apart by my own hands into nearly irreparable pieces, but on the plus side, i've lost some weight and regained my focus. i still think about my ex-love whom i still love. a lot. (sigh)

i should really blog about happier moments...

Omg lost season 6 in six days!

I have taken the next step towards excellence: im officially applying as a volunteer for good sam hospital!

Omg omg omg! Im so lame and just like all holidays, New Years eve has krept up on me! Got any ideas on how best to celebrate?

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! =)

S.Tensai

Im afraid i have a bias for which i h8 myself. I cannot control the feelings i have for this dog carrier or the fool speaking loudly on the phone in the train.

There is a man who seems unhomeless but walks tackily loving a canine albino pit-bull. The genetically crazy animal makes me think less of him than i should but